I get in these funks where I feel like I’m nothing but a pain in the butt to everyone in my life. I’m too opinionated, bossy, lazy, whatever. It’s not a funk where I think people should accept me as I am, it’s more of a I-should-really-change-but-I-doubt-I-can funk. Totally self-centered and in obvious denial of the truth. I’m not the same as I was 5 years ago. Not that I’ve improved leaps and bounds, but it wasn’t even a year ago that I was hitting that snooze button like it was a lifeline and letting piles and piles of laundry build up and consistently forgetting to plan for dinner. Can I just lay it out there that something that happens every dang day of your life should never be an emergency?

But then I take a breath and think, why did I have to preach just then? Why am I so preachy? Nobody is ever going to care what I have to say when I’m so hyper-critical.

But God is faithful. Even now He reminds me of Phil 3 and I see how my mindset has slipped into measuring myself according to something other than Christ.

In Christ, I am enough. In Christ, I will never be “too much”. As I walk in His ways, He will refine me. I need only trust and obey. And in Christ, I will find my refuge. Only He brings true peace — no amount of sleep nor scheduling will fulfill me. Maybe I am a burden or a pain to some, but why should that define me when I’ve been purchased with such a high price as the life of God’s only begotten Son? Let me walk in a manner worthy of that calling and the rest will sort itself out.