1. Try to solve problem by googling, planning, talking it out, thinking thinking thinking thinking

2. Fall into a pit of despair so deep it feels like the sun was some myth people just told themselves to make themselves feel better, and while you may be miserable at least you aren’t living a lie anymore

3. Remember Psalm 139: even the darkness is not dark to You

4. Cry. A lot. Admit that really all the anger has just been years and years of hurt that has no proper outlet

5. Pray. Be rescued again.

Maybe one day I will just start with prayer, but I think it’s going to take some time for me to think of praying as a real way to deal with my petty little problems.

And now you see why those “5 easy steps” blog posts make me want to tear my hair out: it just feeds this long-held totally ridiculous belief I’m trying to kill that I can and should be on this mission to find all the hacks and strategies to DO BETTER.

Sorry if this post is awful and discouraging. I’m going to post it anyway because I need to write more and if I post more, maybe more people will remind me to write or give me writing ideas.