Is it dangerous to isolate when depressed, or is it just being respectful of others?

My reason for asking is that when I isolate, nobody seems to mind. It’s when I start talking about how I’m feeling that people freak out, say their “faith is shaken”, get angry with me.

The worse I feel, the less helpful “encouragement” is. I’ve been in moods so dark that when people try to encourage me, I want to lash out. I want to dissect what they’re saying and point out the inaccuracies. Anyone who dares encourage me with anything resembling human-centric beliefs is toast. It takes restraint to accept encouragement. When I am at my darkest, when my energy is spent, restraint is in short supply.

So — while every therapist on earth says “don’t isolate! talk about how you feel!!!”, maybe what I need to do is just be around people and not feel pressured to be anything other than my morose self. Maybe “not isolating” doesn’t have to mean “crying out for help”.

Really and truly, there is only so much self-examination I can do before I start running into “walls”. I can trap my own self in my own mind, and there comes a point that no amount of words can make any difference. What I need is love — and not just to be loved, but to love.

No deep problems of mine have ever been solved by thinking through them. This irritates me to no end. I want to be able to solve my sin like I would solve an equation. But the equation has already been stated; the proof is in the cross. I don’t need to solve the problem; I need to remember the solution.

So, whatever poor soul actually reads this mess, what do you think?